Happy 2019! I can’t believe it’s already been awhile since I’ve written on here. Okay. More than awhile. 2018 was a year full of blessings: One where I truly enjoyed summer for the first time since having children. One where I gained time with my dad after we almost lost him to septic shock in September (Praise God for his healing hand!). And, one where I’ve seen firsthand the Church’s love in action through its uncommon community.
However, this past year was also really hard. One where I’ve been continually at the end of myself needing Christ’s strength to carry on in motherhood, in my marriage, and in the everyday mundane. I guess, I know, that’s a good place to be, but often it doesn’t make it any less gut-wrenching. The dreary days of Winter also dampen my spirit, like I know it does for many of you. The days are cold and the nights seem unending. With the changing of the calendar, I usually get excited about all the goals I hope to accomplish, but this year I’ve been a little apprehensive about my big dreams as I know how fickle my heart can be. One second, the world is my oyster; the next, I just want to curl up on the couch and avoid the world.
But there’s hope for my fickle, unsettled heart. There’s hope for yours, too.
And that is that “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever” (Hebrews 13:8). His love for us never changes. He doesn’t give up on us even when we feel like giving up in the midst of our circumstances. This is something I need to preach to myself every day.
In fact, Christ died on the cross for our sinful, unsettled hearts before we were even born. He knew our struggles before we did. “He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we might die to sin and live to righteousness. By his wounds you have been healed…” once you believe in death and resurrection of Christ (1 Peter 2:24). I don’t have to succumb to my volatile emotions as he has already eternally healed me the day I accepted his free gift of salvation.
I can choose to walk by the Holy Spirit in joy even when my circumstances and emotions tell me to do otherwise. I can do this, we can do this, because one day “he will wipe away every tear from [our] eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away” (Revelation 21:4).
In all of this, my overarching goal for 2019 is this: committing myself to be daily in God’s Word and striving forward for the eternal joy found in Christ. Even when it’s hard.
What about you? What are your intentions for 2019? Let me know in the comments below!
Hello, I'm Erin – a follower of Christ, wife, mama of two, and registered dietitian. Welcome to my blog where I write about intentional motherhood, intuitive eating, inspired discipleship, and whatever else I feel like!
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