But what I failed to do was to trust God. To trust that He had a greater purpose for my life then my present, seemingly grim reality. To trust Him with my stress and emotions, my fears of the future, and my need to be in control.
My self-reliance only led to complete bitterness, anger, loneliness, and depression. Rock bottom was probably a year or so after the birth of my little guy. And then the change began to happen.
God revealed to me that there was a community of people that loved and cared for me (and had never stopped praying for me). I began fervently studying God’s Word. Even if there were days where I struggled to get into the Bible, the truths from it stayed at the forefront of my mind. The dark days no longer looked so dark. I could see God’s sovereignty in my suffering — that my suffering was all part of his plan to bring me to a place of complete reliance on Him for strength. I began to trust Him, and He renewed my mind. And in the process of learning to trust Him, I (finally!) realized the greatest blessings flow from obedience to God and His Word (Luke 11:28).
So in the past few months (especially since beginning this blog), God has been laying something on my heart — to use my experiences, time, and talents in a way that helps others and glorifies Jesus Christ. And if I’m to take a step of faith and obedience to Him, every aspect of my life needs to be used to serve God (Romans 12:1).
That being said, I’m excited to announce that I’ve begun the ideation and planning stages of a project here at www.BeyondtheDinnerTable.com that will use my life experiences and nutrition expertise to truly help YOU live a transformed life — mind, body, and soul. However, since this idea has just begun to develop (and I’ve got one to two years of hard work ahead of me), I’ll have to hold off giving you more details for the time being.
But what I do ask of you, my friends, family, and loyal readers, is that you will pray for me as I begin this project. Here’s some specific ways you can pray for me:
- That I continually seek to discern what is the will of God in my personal and professional lives, especially in the development of this project;
- That I keep my priorities straight, as I believe my job is first in the home;
- That the words I write and speak may compel others to live an inspired life, one of purpose;
- That I live a life driven by loving others instead of fearing failure;
- That I keep my eyes fixed on the cross of Jesus Christ, looking to the Saviour for strength, instead of looking to myself for strength.